a big thanks~

apologies for my lousy command in english. i know that i don't speak fluently and i sound funny. but bad command in english? i sound bad? that's a harsh word you got there. i'm maybe a malay but i'm not as ill mannered as you are. i'm maybe a malay but i'm not racist as you are. and i'm maybe a malay but i don't speak english with malay tone.

i don't know why you're the one that interviewed me? i'm not degrading or looking down on you but, you yourself only speak with broken english, manglish. at least i speak with some accent as i don't know how to sound like you. sorry if you felt insulted, that's not my business by the way. i don't care if you're an english lecturer but you don't sound like one.

okay, i admit that my grammar is way too disaster but still, what do you expect? perfect grammar with perfect communication skills to be there for you? well, you're not the best place in this country anyway so don't expect too high. i bet you, yourself aren't that superb in english. you too are like the other, used to have mistakes in grammar and you sound more stupid than i am, even though now that you're a lecturer.

don't ever tell anyone that they are bad in something and don't ask people to rate themselves. that's your job, what are you being paid for? for god sake, can't you tell the different between 'through' and 'true'? ohmigosh, ask me what 'through' is? and i have to spell it for you, if i'm not, you not gonna understand it.

treat people the way you wanna be treated. please, you are a MALAY! malay are super famous for their manners and courtesy. please don't make people to hate malay more and don't make malays to hate their own race. there's no use to be educated if that's what you call, certificate i mean; diploma, degree, master, doctorate. what for if you don't sound like one, when you speak you sound like a cleaner that don't ever go to school.

may god be with you. i may not eligible for it but still i have my own pride. don't make others feel bad about themselves and never underestimate people. doesn't anyone taught you that? people maybe respect you but do they really respect you? think again. think.

get a life~

stop that fucking annoying stuff and quit from being such an arse. for god sake! can't you tell that imma malay by my name?

okay, my face features may confuse you but my name with dad's name, for sure imma malay. i have malay name as well as my dad. even though 'if' my mum is a chinese, i'm still malay as kids follow their dad's race. i have malay name and i don't have any chinese surname in it.

i don't blaming people for mistaking my race and i will answer their questions gladly. but for those who making that question as pick-up line, you better get your arse outta my life. it's such a lame lines ever and please behave like a gentleman even if you're not.

i'm not the kind that will be easily flattered with such comments and tales. i'm sick of hearing it, find a cheap girl for you to use those stupid lines. they may have the time to hear your lame, pathetic, stupid lines and easily melt with it.

i don't have extra time to be wasted for. i don't have time to even have a talk with you. just find a door and get yourself out. don't waste mine and yours, go get a real life.

it's annoying~

swearing and cursing is part of me, i could't tear it apart. for heaven sake, you've been given the chance to go that fucking interview that i wasn't chosen. i really want that tesl foundation badly but guess what? i didn't get it. I DIDN'T GET THAT FUCKING INTERVIEW!

well, maybe i'm too stupid for it but that doesn't matter in this case. we are now talking bout the one that are lucky enough to be chosen for the interview. please do care but that interview, don't say that you don't really want it. please do care about your behaviour, don't behave like you aren't one of the human kind. please do care about your appearance, don't go there like you have to.

for god sake, i do admit that i'm super aggrieved that i didn't get the interview. but, i am super duper frustrated when they chose people like you that just pick english for your last resort instead of me that really passionate about it.

i expect that everyone is the most best person that really deserve the chance, but what i saw is frustrating. making fun of english, talking shit stuff bout it, pretending to know the meaning of it. i just can sit among them and read novel while waiting for yukiko. i'm really pissed off when they really don't expect they would be called for the interview as tesl is their last option.

i can just swearing and cursing like hell but that not gonna change any of my destiny. i just can watch the fools have the chance and i just trailing my own path. the one that really drawn for me. god knows the best for sure.